| "What is this & that about.....?" .....questions I've been asked - or "sorry to burst your bubble!" ROUGH RAW & READY - AT LARGE Has nothing to do with sex charisma - I'm rough cause I tend to go places and meet people others tend to judge or are afraid to approach. I'll give up creature comforts on the road to experience, enjoy & challenge myself & everything else around me. I also allow myself to become vulnerable to allow others to see my strengths & weaknesses. I'm raw because I am brutally honest and express what I am feeling yet being sensitive to others' feelings and respecting their boundaries & parameters. I'm always ready to talk with those who may share my zeal of embracing Life. I believe communication is very important between people. VIOLENCE As a child I grew up in a violent atmosphere and my step father was a violent drunk. He hit on my "mother" frequently and only hit on me once when I was a teenager. He only had to hit me once to learn a hard lesson. My first partner (Alec) always became angry when he was drinking and hit me one time. He learned a hard lesson too! I stayed with him until his death in 82 but always allowed him to express his anger because I understood him. I have learned over the years to harness anger and will walk away until things cool down. I do not tolerate abusive & violent behaviour towards myself or others. Often I am asked if I'm afraid of taking risks by being vulnerable in "letting the world know about me" through the Internet or by meeting people I do not know very well. I do not live in that fear or allow that to become a barrier - characters in Looking for Mr. Goodbar & Cruising & Dahmer, drunk drivers, random shootings, hate crimes & other ways of death happen- when my time comes it comes - we can't control everything that happens - that doesn't mean I'm not going to defend or remove myself if I have to. I've also already experienced that evil side of people yet I still have not wavered. WHAT IS PEYODREAM & SURRENDER ? I carry a small voice recorder during sweat lodge & record myself when possible. Later I transcribe/interpret those journeys with the help of someone who was also there. WHAT IS THE DYING LINK ABOUT? "Sleeping Spirit aka The Circle of Life Within the Eyes..." was a page created late 2006 by myself and close friends after two associates I had known for many years severely impacted my life. They became opportunistic & very cleverly devised and hatched a stupid scheme against me to further their own financial means. That scheme was composed of life insurance, forgery, & anti-freeze in small doses and damn near caused me my life and ultimately put me back into the hospital. We in turn "played them back" and finally caught up with them shortly after we revised that page and added two new pages to the website - "The healing July 2007" and "BirthWalk - Awakening....Gone Walkabout..." No, they're not chopped up and in the river bottom - they're still alive in Missouri/Arkansas where they had fled to and justice was served swiftly in late July 07. Those two people, still alive, will never harm again. They turned themselves in for another serious crime they had committed and forever will be looking over their shoulder - they also assigned that policy over. I continue to give people trust and do not allow that to be a barrier for me. YOU'RE STILL LIVING WITH YOUR "EX" - IS IT REALLY OFF? Clay and I had to resolve our problems and up until mid 2006 we examined ourselves, our problems and looked for ways of making the intimate relationship work. Our intimate relationship evolved into a friendship as of Aug 2006 . He lives his life and I live mine. Neither of us fault the other - we just accepted that we both were two bulls. ARE YOU A TOP? I've had to wear those boots for years and found myself extremely frustrated! When I took off on The Ride I was looking for someone who might help me explore my duality. I was fortunate enough to be able to explore that side of sexuality I had suppressed for many years with three men briefly during the ride. I also made it clear in personal ads I had been running an ad for a few years that I was looking for versatile men. Somehow I always seemed to wind up with guys who really wanted to be on the "bottom" end so rather than frustrate myself further I simply would walk away from them. I am aware of the "supply & demand" factors in the gay community. It seems to be my misfortune at this point in Life not to have met someone who is truly versatile and single and not playing. I'm not pushing hard for an LTR. I refuse to subject my dick to perpetuating my frustration to those who play games. I will not subject my asshole to just any cock either for the sake of exploring any possible LTR. I'll wait until my mate and I discover each other - I've already put my best efforts forward in that search and will continue to "kinda" look. I accept that this LTR may never happen in this life. I'm more focused in pursuing other "unrealized dreams" and goals! ARE YOU INTO.......... Leather was always a 2nd skin for me and I couldn't wait to get it off when I came in the door after a run. I do appreciate the smell and feel of leather, the sweat and a bit more from wearing it. When it comes to fantasies and scenes, with a LTR partner/mate I would enjoy exploring creative scenes, am turned on with role playing (coach/player, daddy/boy, whore/john, hustler/john, sgt/pvt, cop/???, cowboy/rodeo, dom/sub, power/challenger), you got the picture! As long as it does not involve scat, bruising, blood, cutting and tree stumps (my humor!). My partner/mate should be ready to receive what they give & it's vice-versa. We both have our boundaries & limits and should respect those. Sexuality and fulfilling sexual fantasies should not cross over into our everyday affairs and our relationship should not be solely based upon sex nor should it be solely on looks! WHO ARE THOSE GUYS IN THE BUFF & OTHER PEOPLE? They're gay/BI/het buddies, friends, & a few I have met or known over the years & The Ride. Some of the "buff" pics were taken by me except for "page 19" but a few were also taken by "self", friends, buddies, spouses, partners, mates, old lady, old man, and "you take mine, I'll take yours." Rally, places, things and other people were taken by me unless otherwise noted below the photo. Don't ask me who I slept with out of those photos because its nobody's business! I am currently working on captioning for most of the photos which were loaded up while I was on The Ride to keep "those in the know" informed of my whereabouts. The index page has a "disclaimer" on it for reasons - legal & otherwise! To keep the photo cannibals at bay thus the "no **** explicit pics" message and of course those under 18 & who need to be warned (legal). I have found my photos in the past showing up in other places and that's the way of the net but hopefully it will reduce interest for those looking. WOULD YOU RELOCATE OR COME SEE ME? I'm able to relocate for a LTR in Georgia - I'm not going far from where I'm at! We get to know each other a bit online through emails first. I will IM chat only after you and I have exchanged emails and we're both comfortable. Then if we both feel we have something we can telephone chat. If we come to a point where we want to meet & date we can take it from there. I love the remote area I live in now. I enjoy this remote mountain area I live in! CAN'T SEEM TO FIND YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS I know it's not plastered on every page in this site. It's on the DINGO (about me) page. It's also below here on/above my current Sep 07 picture. dingomanusa@yahoo.com |
