.....I always keep the romance going and am very creative in doing
so! All you have to do is use your imagination a bit and go from
there.....I remember coming home one day and my 2nd partner had
little black paper hearts cut out and they led to the bathroom where I
found him laying in the tub - candles burning with a bottle of port and
two glasses next to the tub - hey, that's creative.....later on I came
through the bedroom window late one night thinking that I would go
for a "rape scene" but there was a knife before my face. Wow! I
grabbed the knife and the "rape scene" went on as I planned....told
him later that he should have known it was me cause Dingo didn't
bark and he was wagging his tail at the window - he already figured
that out and added the "knife touch" to get me stirred even more..........
.....turned out that this guy I met one time was into some serious
master/slave stuff (nothing wrong with that if that turns ya on but hell,
it makes for some good sexual fantasy playing but it's not
something I would do 24/7/365) and even though he told me that he
wanted to explore his bottom side like myself, he also wanted me to
become a slave. Hey, no one owns me nor will I ever allow anyone
to take away my identity, my right to speak as I wish nor my right to
think for myself.....When Alec and I left Kentucky we swore we would
never belong or be owned by any gang or person ever again and I
have held that close to my heart to this very day yet it's funny - we
loved each other so much there were times we claimed each other
as each others' property.....that's being in love!.....
Aaron (my Godson) and myself in 1998
1995  Austin
a very rare moment in a different dress code....
I was fund raising for an AIDS organization in this one!
Yes I love animals and do miss the Dingo. I also had a cat,
her name was Cassie and she died 2 weeks before Dingo
passed. She was 17 years old......just recently removed a
statement out of mine (profile) about the str8 thing.......to the
effect that "if ya have to take a test to prove your masculinity
then ya got a real problem!" --- moved it out as I needed to put
some other things in the profile but it does crack me up with
all these guys who have to find ways of building their
self-esteem, then seeking some sort of endorsement or
approval from others!.....
.....you NEVER have to explain your actions to me at all - what's
matters is that you took the time to write, not when you did it.
For years I had to explain my actions to people, moreso my
former two partners. It seems they could never understand
why I would get up in the middle of the night to write, or go out
for a ride. In my book, the only actions that have to be
explained and accountable to are those that cause harm to
ones' self and/or others.  It's that simple with me guy!.....
.....I believe you should be able to share freely whatever it is
you are feeling and wish to share - don't feel that way.....no
need to apologize - you should not be apologizing for
everything you feel or say as you are causing no harm.....and
you're entitled to freely do that.....that's a self esteem problem
and if any man told me to shut up I would tell him to get out of
my face.....
.....I have zero tolerance for any type of violence but if I see
someone harming another person who cannot defend
themselves, an animal or a child then that rule goes out the
door and watch out! Yeppers, I do know what you mean. I
never had a problem getting under my house to re-do
plumbing nor have I ever had a problem getting dirty - many
gay men are like prissy sissies when it comes to work and
dirt......
.....I also enjoy the wrestling in the mud pits at the rallies and
runs.....enjoy the grease from the chain of my bike, speaking of
grease I'm getting an erection.....must be that "motorcycle
thing" again..........
.....my friend Steve got a book for Christmas called Cow
Parade Kansas City and WOW!  Those cows are the most
unique and neatest things I have seen in years.  I wondered if
anyone thought about doing a "jerry garcia cow" as I noticed
there was one modeled after marilyn monroe.....
2002  Springfield
er, that's my partner
Clay "the Rattlesnake"
<<<[the true measure of a man is not by his career
or wealth but by the relationships (platonic and
romantic) that he keeps....POSTED TO ME in an
email]>>>.....
.....For me, its a man who has integrity, stands
behind and on top of what he believes in, a man
who does it not by his words but his actions -
actions always speak louder than words......
...... <<<I would like to find that man who is looking
for a relationship.....along with having a vision of a
long term future and life together...POSTED TO ME
in an email I received>>>.....
I have always lived for the future, unlike most
who have this thing called HIV.  Too early on I
saw many people (and still do) sitting around
waiting to die or get sick - I can honestly say I
have not been there....
.....I had a near death experience back in the early
70's and learned some very valuable lessons
from that (and I continue to learn), the most
important being that we should enjoy our life and
those we love/care about while we are here,
plan on being around for some time to come yet
I also realized that we are all here on borrowed
time and we're here for a reason.  At any given
moment we or something we care about can be
snatched right out from under us BUT we should
not occupy our time worrying about death.  Part
of living is planning for the future and realizing
dreams and goals to reality.
<<<I guess the hardest part of it all is breaking ties
with individuals and family members that I care for
very much..... POSTED TO ME in an email I
received>>>....
.You do not have to break the emotional ties, just
the physical ones.  Your friends and family will
always be there for you....
.....One thing I learned was that when we grow
older we do have to break some ties so that we
can move forward in our life.  It's difficult but
people do it everyday (getting married/divorced,
moving out of town, etc).....
.....My extended family provided me with a security
blanket while I was there - it was too easy to have
them their for some emotional support when I
needed it and I realized that I had to carry my own
weight emotionally for once and as a result of my
severing the "close to home" ties I am on my way
to many new things that lay ahead......
.....They're still there for me - just there's a healthy
distance now......
2002  Springfield...and this is
what happens
when there's no coffee in the house
when I wake up in the morning.....
da DingoDog had those bedroom eyes.....
and had a flirting wink
whenever he saw the ribs
come off the smoker.....
.....Disease free eh???  I'm up front about my
HIV status and you mentioned that you are
looking for a man who is sexually dominant
(top) -  I'm not sure if I could handle having a
partner who is HIV negative.  I am fully aware
that these relationships can work among a few
couples but I know there are also many issues
and problems that do arise from these
relationships.  I also enjoy barebacking with my
partner and although I do not often ejaculate
within my partner during lovemaking, I do cum
in them and I want the same in return!Many of
the guys I have met here and on the net seem
to have nothing better to do than eat at each
other and that's real sad.....I've met a few good
ones too but for the most part these people in
this city (Springfield) act as if they are always on
steroids - but that's the small town thing I guess
and the gurlie bikers I have met are really terrific
- in fact, they are the reason I decided to stick
around here for a while.....
.....the pwa's here sit around waiting to die and
I've met many here who do drugs - I have zero
tolerance for illicit drugs (I do not smoke pot but
I am hemp friendly and that's it) - I've seen what
drugs do to people and I use to deal with meth
in california. Left that business in 1979.....seen
too many people go down hard on drugs and
not only waste their lives away but try to bring
those around them down as well - not me!...
.....Yeah there are a lot of people who play
games on and off the internet but those are the
risks we take at times in meeting people and I
have not lost faith in anyone else.....I still open
myself up completely to people when meeting
them the first time and I have always given trust
to someone until they proved otherwise - once
trust is broken though, it's gone!.....